so blog,

alam kong di kita ina-update at di rin makabuluhan ang mga pinopost ko. ang totoo nyan, di ko na rin sinusulatan ang diary ko. ang dami lang kasing nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon, at sa konting oras sa pagitan ng pagdating ko sa bahay at paghilata ko sa kama hindi ko na nasisingit ang pagdodokumento sa mga naganap sa akin sa isang buong araw. ngayon lang uli, kakauwi ko galing sa poetry reading sa mt cloud bookstore at pagtambay sa clockwork lounge ng tig-tatlong oras.

photo from their facebook page@ Mt Cloud Bookshop, check'em out homies

i had an ok night. no, i had a great night.

i wouldn't admit this to just anybody, pero noon takot akong makisalamuha sa tao. takot akong may masabi sila sakin, may magawa akong masama. pero di ba lahat naman ganun? naiiba lang ang degree kada-tao. but so much has changed. so much so, na minsan napapatigil na lang ako to think, buhay ko pa ba to? or am i living the projection of someone else's life? like when i sit in a bar to watch people. dim lights, chattering. people who need people to make their friday nights count. whenever i watch people in a bar, sumasagi sa isip ko na, andito din ba sila para manood ng ibang tao? there's got to be someone who does that. maliban sakin. tapos maiisip ko, marami. oo naman, marami. tapos yun na yun.

beer. ilang buhay din ang nagkakabuhol-buhol dahil sa beer. not to put stress on the importance of beer in building social relations, kahit ano naman, knitting, soccer, bulalo, pagda-drive, nail polish. i'm blabbering alright.

i came home thinking, i'm gonna update my blog, make some sense out of it. anyway. nothing.

i just love my life right now. i got over someone i thought i loved so much only to realize that i was being stupid on purpose by letting him enslave me. makiki-ride-on ako sa mga pakulo niya, tipong mga laro na 'love is ganito, ganyan, it doesn't need to be established with words' bla bla bla. hello? pag di ka mahal, di ka mahal, wag mo ng paasahin sarili mo. (valentines meme i'm so bitter bla bla bla) in short, nagpauto ako. haha. nakakatawa na lang ngayon just to think how immature i am about relationships.

the truth is, i really want to graduate from college. di lang bagay ang pinili kong lifestyle sa ugali ko and attitude towards studying. again children, listen to your momma. what momma preaches, nasa bibliya yan ng kalawakan. grabe, 20 years on earth and i choose to listen to my mom only now. haha. sooooo.. aral na lang, tama na lovelife.

**i think you've noticed. i'm a blabber.**

today mom and i had my cam looked at. motor daw ang problema, and 3,500 ang paayos. di ko alam kung overpricing yun pero sabi ko ok na yun kesa magpunta pa manila. i'm just so excited na maaayos na siya at na di ko na kailangan bumili pa ng bago. which is why i really feel like i had a great day. :) cleaning my room tomorrow. :)