i just finished reading my dad's birthday message for me, a note on facebook. we're chatting now, and like me, he's crying in front of his laptop. he said he was afraid i didnt like what he wrote, baka daw kasi korny e ang tanda ko na. hindi ko alam kung bakit niya iisipin yun. 


here's what he said.

Cara Mia,

[...] I am sorry though that I was not with you the whole time you were growing up, to witness every phase you have been through in your life. I don’t need to explain because obviously you know the reasons why. But you know my heart’s desires…I always wanted to be near you so you'd have someone to tell what’s in your mind, to listen to your stories, to laugh with you during your happiest moments or to have a shoulder to lean on when you are down and want to cry.
Your mom and I may not be the most perfect parents in the world but we can always assure you that we will always be here for you and that our unconditional love will always be for you.
If I can just bring back time, I would wish that I can carry you in my arms again the way I carried you when you were still a baby and witness all the moments I missed while you transform to the woman you are now. It doesn’t matter though, as you, to me, will always be my precious baby.
Cara mia, I love you and always will.

ako na ang nagdrop ng semester at hindi umuuwi sa bahay, ayaw pa rin akong hayaan magsarili. anyway.

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at marcia's

tita, me and marcia! :) gulo ng buhok ko. hahaha.

love marcia's tita

at mike's

papabear hybernating :)

<3

 i stayed at mike's almost the whole week at ngayon lang ako matutulog uli dito sa apartment. not much happens at work, later ill go to school and get my instructors to sign the dropping form. and meet aimee and phoebe and ate tere. i miss them so much now. parang ang bilis ng oras pag andun ako kina mike, o baka kasi lagi ko syang kasama kaya parang wala na akong inaantay na may mangyaring bago. after shift uuwi kami sa kanila, watch a movie o magfefacebook, magkwekwentuhan, magyoyosi, matutulog ng 5am. we'd wake up just an hour before lunch, eat with his mom, pc nanaman, at mag-aayos bago magpunta trabaho. 


except for today. haha. need to go now. i apologize for the lousy and rushed updates.